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Friday, November 23, 2007

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 03:45:04 GMT

It's been a long time since I've updated anything. I guess I don't have much to say anymore. I am now a hermit crab working two jobs and trying to keep myself from drowning. Now and then I go back to this site and see some of these pictures streaming across the top, I am reminded of all the things I did my senior year at BU. It's hard to believe that almost two years has passed by already and how my life has changed so much in comparison. Senior year was exciting, lots of things were happening, and I kinda got caught up in it. I played more and it was awesome. Now, I barely play at all. Now there's more responsibility and adult life.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 02:40:47 GMT

Where has all the time gone? I haven't even had a summer yet. All I did was work and I will keep working until the day I die. Everything is gonna get even busier in the Fall. Hopefully, I will be able to balance my two jobs - my teaching job and my retail job. I love my retail job cuz I don't have to think. But I can't do retail all my life. I need a real job, one that I've been working towards for the last year.

My new home away from home will be Needham High. I'm not sure what to make of it yet. It's a good job at a good school with a lot of available resources for me. It def wasn't my first choice, but it's still a good choice for me to settle. What can I say? It's Boston's loss. They can't expect me to wait and hold out for them when I'm getting offers from other places and they tell me that they want me but don't want to make me a commitment. I just hope I can live up to Needham's expectations of me.

omgoodness

Wed, 16 May 2007 13:34:45 GMT

everything is quickly coming to a close ... i'm almost done with everything.
graduation is this sunday. i got my cap, gown, and hood yesterday. it's alot of material and i'm prob gonna be wicked hot.

had to turn down a couple of interview requests b/c they weren't what i wanted
went on a couple of interviews ... all of them went excellent
now stuck in a bind ... do i accept the offer or wait for something i wanted more?
i'm so picky, i'l prob end up with no job at all
i did excellent in the interview, but the place isn't what i'm looking for
oh my!!! what is mess i've created!?!?!

Monday, November 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 02:27:06 GMT

life is full of uncertainty. one momment we might think we know what we want; then the next, we are in the dark. we might think we know what is most important to us, but then again what is most significant can become trivial in an insant.

i want to say seize the day and live life to the fullest because we might not know what tomorrow may brings, but i don't feel that way. our priorities change, our wants and desires change. it is better to live life in moderation rather than to regret what we did the day before.

the biggest loss is not to regret what could have been but to regret what had been done self-fishly.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 23:42:12 GMT

omg . . . it seems like forever since i've updated . . . last year about this time i've been updating a lot, big difference one year makes. i'm now living at home, not dorm anymore, i am at tufts and not at bu, i am studying a lot less than i did when i was at bu . . . i'm still trying to figure out if that's a good or bad thing

but i guess i can't really complain about life, everything is good, family good, school good, friends good, money . . . uummmmm i'm getting there. i'm working at the Wine Press on beacon street on mondays and i will start working at Lane Bryant at cambridge galleria on wednesday nites . . . i just hope i see some of that money

i am in a better place this year, everything seems to be wokring out for me . . . i feel happy, at least i think i'm happier than i was last year.

Monday, July 31, 2006

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 00:01:45 GMT

"Life is a moment in space
When the dream is gone
It’s a lonelier place
I kiss the morning goodbye
But down inside you know
We never know why . . . "

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 11:47:16 GMT

it's over . . . it's definitely over . . . i'm still unsure whether i'm happy or sad, but that doesn't really matter at all . . . i have to move on and think about what the future holds